As I sit and stare at this blank page, trying to put my
thoughts and feelings into words, I realize it may never be fully
possible. Nighttime has proven to
be the hardest of all hours, because as things go silent, my mind runs. I never thought it would be possible to
find a place where you wake up each day happier than the one before. The frustrations fade away, and the
many happy memories rush in as I try to express how much these 5 weeks have
changed me. To get to school each
day and be welcomed by a sea of children who love you no matter what is an
unexplainable feeling. As painful
as it is, as tears hang in my eyes writing this, it has not fully set in
yet. My clothes still lay
scattered in the room, side table by my bed is full with books and notebooks
for planning, and it remains the same as it has for the past 5 weeks. I know tonight when I return from
playing with the kids, I’ll have to pack it up, and prepare to fly home, back
to life and work, and somehow back to how things were. But I know that is not really possible,
because I know how it was returning home last time. Back to a world filled with those who care more about
material than much else, or those who are ignorant to the rest of the world. Back to that world, from a place where
love trumps all else, where happiness to be alive overtakes the everyday
struggles, and where children learn what it means to be grateful, and not to
take anything for granted.
As I ate my breakfast this morning, I watched a woman at her
house cleaning dishes outside. Simple
things we take for granted at home, save us so much time on a daily basis. Washing clothes for instance: you put
them in the machine, hit start, and walk away to do other things. But here you have to scrub each item,
dump the dirty water, scrub again, dump that water, and then get fresh water to
rinse. The same process comes with
the dishes. The things we hate
doing at home, that only take a few short minutes, can take an hour here, yet
no one complains. The 11, 12, 13
and 14 year olds at Happy Kids wash their own clothes, and those of the younger
children. They wash the dishes
each day, without a word of resistance.
They are responsible and mature, and yet at the end of the day, they are
still children who play soccer, and read books. But they are respectful, they are kind, aware of their
actions, and protective of the young ones. My days are happy here because I see the children and know I
have impacted them greatly.
I held back the tears as I listened to each child in my
class get up in front and speak about my time here. “I want to thank you.
Since you came we have been happy about all you have taught. When you go we will miss you so
much. I thank you for all you have
done during your stay.” –Vera
“When you came, you taught very well, so God should bless
you. You did not get angry with
anyone while here. I thank
you. If you go, God shall get you
home safely, and I will pray for you.” Mary
“Since you came, you have been teaching with happiness. On Sunday you made a party for us. We ate, drank, and danced. If you go, I will always remember you.” George
“Since you came, you have been teaching with happiness. On Sunday you made a party for us. We ate, drank, and danced. If you go, I will always remember you.” George
As I finish writing this, I prepare to write a letter to my
kids. I will thank them for all
they have taught me, about compassion, determination, strength, and true beauty
both inside and out. I will remind
them that they will reach their dreams if they follow their heart, and never
ever give up. I will remind them
that I will think of them each day, and promise to write. And my final promise will be that I
will return again.
My crazy, loud, goofy, beautiful, determined class of dreamers <3
I can leave with peace of mind, knowing these 3 amazing people are watching over these kids, Emmanuel, Pat, and Elizabeth
Wisdom and Elizabeth
As the rain falls, it seems to represent the sadness I’m
faced with today. Goodbye is never
easy but as a saying goes, how lucky I am
to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard…

